balance

lately i've been out of balance. i've been trying to figure out where i should be at this point in my life- but in the midst of figuring things out, i think i'm forgetting the important things. i worry too much about the future and what it has in store for me. i've kind of hit a wall. & by doing so, i also put up walls and become super guarded. i put myself in tangled situations. i tend to sweep the important things, or the things that scare me under the rug. i run.. far away. i become afraid of making decisions for the fear of making the wrong one. lately ill be honest i've been taking the easy way out on just about.. uh everything. i like to "go with the flow" but sometimes i get too caught in the "flow" and lose sight of where that flow is taking me. i'm terrified of failure or letting people down. but isn't that what life is all about? failing so we can succeed? taking chances & learning from our mistakes? living life to the fullest & having no regrets? i cant live in fear & i cant put things off forever- even though sometimes i would like to. i have to keep moving on with my life & making the best of it, even if its hard at times. i cant play it safe anymore. i have to have the courage to face all the things i've been running from. & as much as i hate to say it- i have to let the walls come down. i need to trust my instincts & be willing to let things go. i need to find balance.