today is a GOOD day


i am happy

im not going to lie though
... i've been hiding lately
ignoring everyone
and keeping to myself
it was needed

but im out of my hole
i peeped my head out a few days ago
and yesterday i climbed all the way out

but i am happy

& today was a good day
no
it was a fantastic day
just lovely i tell ya

i woke up tired but i didn't mind because last night was so fun
i went to bed smiling

i spent 45 min in a car giggling with my cousin
& heytell-ing my girl cait

the sun is out

zachary got baptized
it was just the best thing ever
i absolutely adore him

i got to see all my best friends
& spend the afternoon with them

my mom made carmel popcorn
my favorite

the sun is shinning
(did i say that already?)

& noooww
im leaving to california for a week of fun & sun

today is a good day

xoxo
glad to be backkkk

Shipwreck in the sea of faces,

There's a dreamy world up there,
Dear friends in higher places,
Carry me away from here

Travel light let the sun eclipse you,
'Cause your flight is about to leave,
And there's more to this brave adventure,
Than you'd ever believe

Birdseye view, awake the stars 'cause they're all around you,
Wide eyes will always brighten the blue,
Chase your dreams, and remember me, sweet bravery,
Because after all those wings will take you, up so high,
So bid the forest floor goodbye, as you race the wind and,
Take to the sky

On the heels of war and wonder,
There's a stormy world up there,
You can't whisper above the thunder,
But you can fly anywhere

Purple burst of paper birds this,
Picture paints a thousand words,
So take a breath of myth and mystery,
And don't look back!

Birdseye view, awake the stars 'cause they're all around you,
Wide eyes will always brighten the blue,
Chase your dreams, and remember me, sweet bravery,
Because after all those wings will take you, up so high,
So bid the forest a fond goodbye, as you brace the wind and,
Take to the sky

There's a realm above the trees,
Where the lost are finally found,
Touch your feathers to the breeze,
And leave the ground

a few random things on my mind




1. i love the emails i get on mondee
2. people shouldn't get so worked up about the little things. relax people & enjoy life. stop making such a fuss about what other people do
3. seeing friends i haven't seen in a while makes me very happy
4. i hate cramps & endometriosis. thank you mother nature.
5. im obsessed with the words- obsessed. gem. dearly. lovely. seriously. eek. yay & woot.
6. tiny wings is taking over my life
7. i am so ready for summer. i don't mind the rain- but the snow today.. really?
8. we accidently dyed my hair dark but i actually really love it
9. i need a job. in a salon preferably. or being a nanny. or both
10. im pretty sure i can add milk to the long list of food allergies. ehhh
11. i just had to do something really hard to a really good person and i still feel sick about it
12. the suspense for the bachelor next week is killing me. bahhh im so excited
13. i have made some really good friends the past few months & i love them dearly
14. i love the fact that my cute cousin cailey hangs out with me & my friends now
15. deep chats/ skype sessions make my life complete
16. babysitting my great grandma is a adventure in itself. she is hilarious
17. i like inspiring people who do things because thats who they are not because they are trying to prove something
18. having a bff thats a guy makes all the difference sometimes
19. i am seriously missing a few people in my life right now
20. who really cares how many people follow your blog. its not a contest
21. if you don't watch ellen everyday. you should. she is too freaking funny
22. i hardly ever cry about my personal life but when i watch shows or movies i swear i cry in every single one i see
23. charleston chews are so yummy. so what if i maybe bought 10 boxes of them the other night
24. my cute friends are weird & hilarious and we do funny things
25. i like hanging out with my grandma jill & love the fact that almost everyday all my aunts are at her house
26. i really want a baby & maybe a husband. but really just a baby
27. i kinda sorta maybe miss living in provo. ahhh shocking. i know
28. when i see boys being nice & sweet to little kids. bam. game over. they have won my affection
29. i've been thirsty for days but i refuse to drink tap water & we have been out of h2o bottles
30. & lastly- i really really really get sick of people gossiping & judging others. i know im not perfect at it either. but mannn alive. some people are just too good at it its gross. who cares what they wear. or how they do their hair. who cares if they don't have the same taste in music as you. so what if their teeth are yellow. get over the fact that they aren't like you. people are different & you may not like what you see but obviously they do so give them a break. no one is perfect & everyone goes through hard things in their life. stop judging them. like i said im not the best at this either but after this weekend of seeing millions of things unfold in front of me from people judging others- i made it a goal for myself to be better at not judging others or better yet having a little more compassion & charity towards others. shouldn't we all?

about a year ago i had to give a talk in church about charity- the pure love of christ right?
well when charity first comes to mind most would probably think of things such as giving money to the poor, feeding the hungry, taking care of the sick etc. those are all true and examples of charity but i decided to talk about another aspect of charity. how charity is perhaps in many ways a misunderstood word. real charity is not something you give a away- its something you acquire and make part of yourself. perhaps the greatest charity comes from when we are kind to each other. when we don't judge or categorize someone else. when we don't gossip. when we simply give each other the benefit of the doubt. charity is accepting someone's differences, weaknesses and shortcomings. having patience with someone who has let us down or resisting the impulse to become offended when someone doesn't handle something the way we would have hoped. charity is refusing to take advantage of another's weakness and being willing to forgive someone who has hurt us. charity is excepting the best of each other and not judging one another. there will always be those days where we want to bash, judge, or be mean to someone else but maybe we should take into consideration the saying the bunny uses in bambi- "if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all." Don't waste your breath people. it is only going to demean others, hurt their feelings, ruin relationships & hurt your own self esteem & honestly it makes you look bad. if we could all just look into each other's hearts and understand the unique challenges each of us faces, i think we would treat each other much more gently, with more love, patience, tolerance & care. think about it.

anyways. thats enough rambling for the night.
"everyone has a secret they haven't shared. everyone has a past no one's heard about. everyone has talents that people don't notice. everyone has weaknesses hidden inside. everyone has a story left untold, so never start judging someone thinking you know them back to front. because the truth is, you probably don't."
xo

day14- favorite quote


[did anyone else want to go play in the rain today?]

i have millions of favorite quotes
that i just love love love

but this is one of my all time favs
& considering its sunday & i didn't go to church today
i thought i would pick this one

"believe in yourself. believe in your capacity to do great and good things. believe that no mountain is so high that you cannot climb it. believe that no storm is so great you cannot weather it. you are not destined to be a scrub. you are a child of god, of infinite capacity. believe that you can do it- whatever it is that you set your heart on. opportunities will unfold and open before you. the skies will clear when they have been dark with portent."

-gordon b. hinkley




"you are never too old to
set another goal or
to dream a new dream"


remember the 30 day challenge...?


well i figured i might as well finish it like i said i would

day13- what do you carry in your purse?


( dumped out purse )

- nail polish
- wallet
- mint
- trash
- multiple pens
- six different chap sticks & lip glosses
- loose coins
-lotion
-eye drops
-bobby pins
-epi-pen
-make up brush
-perfume
-neosporin
- cash (not in wallet)
- debit card (not in wallet)
- drivers license (not in wallet)
( don't know why i even have a wallet )

xoxo

"that was ammmazin"


im almost too good at being the favorite sister
...

today i checked sylvie out of school early
& took her & surie to the justin bieber movie
to say they loved it is a understatement
they were smiles from ear to ear the whole time

we had the whole place to ourselves so we just
danced & sang right along
i cried again
( you would think after watching it a few times i wouldn't cry anymore- but no it gets worse every time)

we walked out and surie told me
"that was ammmazin"
she didn't want to leave

& when we got home i caught sylvie up staris
just bllllassttting JB on the computer

ahhh sweet victory

i mean i love him myself
but seeing younger girls like my sisters
just obsess over him as their teen heart throb
makes it 10 times better

when i was younger i loved n'sync & the backstreet boys
& thought justin timberlake was the best thing
to come to this earth-
but i don't think i was ever as crazy as justinbiebs fans are
more power to him