[today, im grateful for]

the most amazing dad who gives me infinite love and support 

a best friend who gives me inner strength 

... and tells me i can do the hard things in life- and tells me if she could she would do them for me. like writting a letter for me and i can just sign my name at the end if that makes it easier to send 

the place i feel most at home and myself- cabin count down 13 days

my education, i love being able to learn even when school gets hard and stressful and i leave crying multiple days in a row

chocolate creamies from bridget and erics house

driving with the sunroof open and all the windows down 

music that pumps you up and makes you want to dance all over the house 

playing legos with my little cousins- i forgot how much fun i had playing legos with judd when i was younger

making plans for a day hanging out with my sister

my grandpa rog- i dont think he has any idea of how much i look up to him

my grandma jill- for always having my back and making sure im okay

making wish lists of things i cant afford but keeping tabs on my computer anyways

missionaries- :) especially the ones who have to deal with my obnoxious honking and waving every time i drive by the mtc

texting my mom and telling her all the funny things nanny is doing and knowing she is laughing on the other end

watching my favorite shows on animal planet like river monsters, or life, or whale wars 

keeping secrets and daily records in my journal

my heavenly father for the blessings he gives me daily 

and last but not least- realizing what this girl realizes too..

Realizing that nothing just happens. Realizing that I am surrounded by love, by people who care, who’s actions speak louder than words…and choosing NOT to allow one let down take me back to the dark place, the place where I expect this, deserve this, should have known this would happen blah blah blah. Wondering if I’ve closed the door on that dark place for good.  For now, I just choose to smile because my life, with all of it’s ups and downs, is just so GOOD…and so damn fun. 

On that note…