im sorry mat k. im cheating on you. havent stopped listening to this allllll day.

This one's for the lonely

The ones that seek and find

Only to be let down

Time after time

This one's for the torn down

The experts at the fall

Come on friends get up now

You're not alone at all

And this part was for her

This part was for her

This part was for her

Does she remember?

It comes and goes in waves, i....

This one's for the faithless

The ones that are surprised

They are only where they are now

Regardless of their fight

This one's for believing

If only for it's sake

Come on friends get up now

Love is to be made

And this part was for her

This part was for her

This part was for her

Does she remember?

It comes and goes in waves,

I am only led to wonder why

It comes and goes in waves

I am only led to wonder why

Why I try

This is for the ones who stand

For the ones who try again

For the ones who need a hand

For the ones who think they can

It comes and goes in waves,

I am only led to wonder why

It comes and goes in waves

I am only led to wonder why

Why I try

matchmaker

i set up my best friend

& my cousin

and now they are

ENGAGED

due to be married in december

& i could not be more excited for them

i knew it was a PERFECT fit

Congratulations you two love birds

& welcome to the family brade

woooohhooooo

xoxo

letting go doesn't mean giving up

but rather accepting that there are

things that cannot be

just a little ramble

you know those days where you

think you have the worst life ever

and the world is out to get you?

whelp- today that was me

i was totally throwing myself a pity party

and feeling sorry for myself

i cried myself to sleep and i think i woke

up crying as if i didn't stop in my sleep

i just had a bad bad day and i was

milking it for all its worth

then out of no where i thought of a friend

who's life is way harder than mine

and when i say way- i mean way

she is doing things that i wouldn't be able to

do even if someone paid me a million dollars

she is a gem and probably the strongest person i know

and then i felt stupid

for being soo dramatic

sure- i'm going through a hard time

and i know its okay to be sad about my situation

because i am sad

..but..

i had to take a step back for a second and realize

that my life really is good

and i really am happy and so blessed

and sure sometimes things don't always go as

planned- but i know in the end it will all be okay

i will be okay

"everything will be okay in the end

if its not okay

its not the end"

so instead of focusing so much

on myself and my hardships

i decided i would focus more on her

and others in general

i wrote this friend of mine a little message

telling her i loved her and that

i was thinking about her

and you know what?

i feel better

i think people (myself included) can get so caught up

in our own issues that we forget about others

and become so self absorbed

and i dont know about you guys

but when i think about something and only

that one thing- it makes me more upset

because duh!- thats all you're thinking about

so what a better way to get over it

by having a little charity and thinking

of others right!?

just a thought

i heard a saying once that said-

if we all threw our problems in a pile

and saw everyone else's

we'd grab ours back

alright i'm done rambling

much love

xoxo

i hope they call me on a mission..

& he's a goner..

left wednesday to go serve the

people of McAllen, Texas

a proud sister i am

see ya in 2!

xoxo

..feeling defeated..