letting go doesn't mean giving up

but rather accepting that there are

things that cannot be

just a little ramble

you know those days where you

think you have the worst life ever

and the world is out to get you?

whelp- today that was me

i was totally throwing myself a pity party

and feeling sorry for myself

i cried myself to sleep and i think i woke

up crying as if i didn't stop in my sleep

i just had a bad bad day and i was

milking it for all its worth

then out of no where i thought of a friend

who's life is way harder than mine

and when i say way- i mean way

she is doing things that i wouldn't be able to

do even if someone paid me a million dollars

she is a gem and probably the strongest person i know

and then i felt stupid

for being soo dramatic

sure- i'm going through a hard time

and i know its okay to be sad about my situation

because i am sad

..but..

i had to take a step back for a second and realize

that my life really is good

and i really am happy and so blessed

and sure sometimes things don't always go as

planned- but i know in the end it will all be okay

i will be okay

"everything will be okay in the end

if its not okay

its not the end"

so instead of focusing so much

on myself and my hardships

i decided i would focus more on her

and others in general

i wrote this friend of mine a little message

telling her i loved her and that

i was thinking about her

and you know what?

i feel better

i think people (myself included) can get so caught up

in our own issues that we forget about others

and become so self absorbed

and i dont know about you guys

but when i think about something and only

that one thing- it makes me more upset

because duh!- thats all you're thinking about

so what a better way to get over it

by having a little charity and thinking

of others right!?

just a thought

i heard a saying once that said-

if we all threw our problems in a pile

and saw everyone else's

we'd grab ours back

alright i'm done rambling

much love

xoxo

i hope they call me on a mission..

& he's a goner..

left wednesday to go serve the

people of McAllen, Texas

a proud sister i am

see ya in 2!

xoxo

..feeling defeated..

Modest is Hottest, Ladies.

"I find the whole concept of being ‘sexy’ embarrassing and confusing. If I do an interview with photographs people desperately want to change me - dye my hair blonder, pluck my eyebrows, give me a fringe. Then there’s the choice of clothes. I know everyone wants a picture of me in a mini-skirt. But that’s not me. I feel uncomfortable. I’d never go out in a mini-skirt. It’s nothing to do with protecting the Hermione image. I wouldn’t do that. Personally, I don’t actually think it’s even that sexy. What’s sexy about saying, ‘I’m here with my boobs out and a short skirt, have a look at everything I’ve got?’ My idea of sexy is that less is more. The less you reveal the more people can wonder.

- Emma Watson

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor, catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."

- Mark Twain

Christina Perri - Arms

balance

lately i've been out of balance. i've been trying to figure out where i should be at this point in my life- but in the midst of figuring things out, i think i'm forgetting the important things. i worry too much about the future and what it has in store for me. i've kind of hit a wall. & by doing so, i also put up walls and become super guarded. i put myself in tangled situations. i tend to sweep the important things, or the things that scare me under the rug. i run.. far away. i become afraid of making decisions for the fear of making the wrong one. lately ill be honest i've been taking the easy way out on just about.. uh everything. i like to "go with the flow" but sometimes i get too caught in the "flow" and lose sight of where that flow is taking me. i'm terrified of failure or letting people down. but isn't that what life is all about? failing so we can succeed? taking chances & learning from our mistakes? living life to the fullest & having no regrets? i cant live in fear & i cant put things off forever- even though sometimes i would like to. i have to keep moving on with my life & making the best of it, even if its hard at times. i cant play it safe anymore. i have to have the courage to face all the things i've been running from. & as much as i hate to say it- i have to let the walls come down. i need to trust my instincts & be willing to let things go. i need to find balance.

"for every dark night,

there's a brighter day"