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go for long walks
indulge in hot baths
question your assumptions
be kind to yourself
live for the moment
loosen up
curse the world
count your blessings
just let go
just be

-carol shields

a moment

i had a moment
where all the sudden a light
when from off to on

in this moment i was giddy as can be
soooo happy i was indeed

i felt free

free from everything that has
been holding me back

i was free to be myself again

free to let go of the past
so i did
i let go

& to be honest i've never felt better
it took me a minute to realize
but this has possibly been the best
thing to ever happen to me

cause like i said
i feel free

"the sky is the limit & i just want to float
free as a spirit on a journey of hope
cut the strings & let me go
im weightless, im weightless

millions of balloons tethered to the ground
weight of the world tries to hold us down
cut the strings & let me go
im weightless, im weightless

ready steady, ready, lets go"

thank you lp for sharing
this moment with me
i wouldnt have wanted to share
it with anyone else

look to this day for it is life.
in its brief course lie all
the realities and truths of existence,
the joy of growth, the glory of action,
the splendor of beauty...
today well lived makes every
yesterday a memory of happiness
and every tomorrow a vision of hope.
look well, therefore, to this day...

-ancient sanskrit proverb

sometimes i wish you
could choose who you
dream about

get outttaaa my head

happy sunday

in good company

i like people who can
turn my day around


went to the rsl game tonight
with the onerepublic concert after


sat in a box suite
very luxurious

i decided i want to buy
season tickets for next year
wouldnt that be fun!?
i think so too

im glad i was there instead
of the other game...
(still love the cougs-
but that was a wee bit embarrassing)

that was a

" the most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. these persons have a appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. beautiful people do not just happen. "

-elizabeth kubler ros

just a memory

the day they discontinued postum
was the worst day of my life

just sayin..

ohhh how im craving a yummy
mug full right about now


bitter or better

bitter or better

bitter or better


choose better soph

"i believe that everything happens for a reason. people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

-marilyn monroe

she is so wise

"happiness can be found, even in the
darkest of times, if one only remembers
to turn on the light"

-albus dumbledore


i've been watching shows about 9.11
for the past couple days
which has been completely humbling
& one in particular stuck out to me

a sweet lady
a survivor of the attacks

as she told her story she had tears in
her eyes as she talked about the young man
that risked his life for her own
he saved her
& he died

she talked about how she felt like
because he made such an amazing
sacrifice for her she owed it to him to
live a happy & good life

i couldn't help but think of my savior at that time
he made the ultimate sacrifice for us
he died so that we too could live
a happy and good life
he loved us so much that he was willing
to take on the sins of the world
suffering pains & afflictions of all kinds
& died for each & every one of us
not just one person
but all of us

i feel so blessed to have the gospel in my
life & the understanding of the atonement

but i also feel so blessed to live in america
especially on this 10 year anniversary of 9.11
just a reminder of how lucky we are
to live in a free country
& im so thankful for all the men & women
who risk their lives everyday to keep it that way

good things to come

Don’t you quit. You keep walking. You keep trying. There is help and happiness ahead. Some blessings come soon, some come late, and some don’t come until heaven. But for those who embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ,they come. It will be all right in the end. Trust God and believe in good things to come."

-jeffrey r. holland

happy sunday

the battle with my cozy bed

i have a little problem
i wouldnt call it laziness
but more like a love affair
...with my bed

sometimes i feel so great laying in it
that i never want to leave it

i just want to stay cuddled up
with my blanket
a fluffy pillow
& a good book for days
add in my computer so i can
constantly be on pinterest
& im set for life

is that so wrong?

just wanted to tell the whole world (or whoever reads my blog) how lucky i am to have 4 wonderful older sisters. oh wait... i mean aunts. but basically they are my sisters. my best friends. i love them ohh so much & feel ohh so blessed to have them in my life. i love being able to tell them anything & everything. i know they love me & and have my back- always. i really appreciate them.. more than they probably know.

sweet dreams

im sorry mat k. im cheating on you. havent stopped listening to this allllll day.

This one's for the lonely

The ones that seek and find
Only to be let down
Time after time

This one's for the torn down
The experts at the fall
Come on friends get up now
You're not alone at all

And this part was for her
This part was for her
This part was for her
Does she remember?

It comes and goes in waves, i....

This one's for the faithless
The ones that are surprised
They are only where they are now
Regardless of their fight

This one's for believing
If only for it's sake
Come on friends get up now
Love is to be made

And this part was for her
This part was for her
This part was for her
Does she remember?

It comes and goes in waves,
I am only led to wonder why
It comes and goes in waves
I am only led to wonder why
Why I try

This is for the ones who stand
For the ones who try again
For the ones who need a hand
For the ones who think they can

It comes and goes in waves,
I am only led to wonder why
It comes and goes in waves
I am only led to wonder why
Why I try


i set up my best friend

& my cousin

and now they are

due to be married in december
& i could not be more excited for them
i knew it was a PERFECT fit

Congratulations you two love birds
& welcome to the family brade

letting go doesn't mean giving up
but rather accepting that there are
things that cannot be

just a little ramble

you know those days where you
think you have the worst life ever
and the world is out to get you?
whelp- today that was me
i was totally throwing myself a pity party
and feeling sorry for myself
i cried myself to sleep and i think i woke
up crying as if i didn't stop in my sleep
i just had a bad bad day and i was
milking it for all its worth

then out of no where i thought of a friend
who's life is way harder than mine
and when i say way- i mean way
she is doing things that i wouldn't be able to
do even if someone paid me a million dollars
she is a gem and probably the strongest person i know

and then i felt stupid
for being soo dramatic

sure- i'm going through a hard time
and i know its okay to be sad about my situation
because i am sad
i had to take a step back for a second and realize
that my life really is good
and i really am happy and so blessed
and sure sometimes things don't always go as
planned- but i know in the end it will all be okay
i will be okay

"everything will be okay in the end
if its not okay
its not the end"

so instead of focusing so much
on myself and my hardships
i decided i would focus more on her
and others in general

i wrote this friend of mine a little message
telling her i loved her and that
i was thinking about her

and you know what?
i feel better

i think people (myself included) can get so caught up
in our own issues that we forget about others
and become so self absorbed

and i dont know about you guys
but when i think about something and only
that one thing- it makes me more upset
because duh!- thats all you're thinking about

so what a better way to get over it
by having a little charity and thinking
of others right!?

just a thought

i heard a saying once that said-
if we all threw our problems in a pile
and saw everyone else's
we'd grab ours back

alright i'm done rambling
much love

i hope they call me on a mission..

& he's a goner..
left wednesday to go serve the
people of McAllen, Texas

a proud sister i am

see ya in 2!

..feeling defeated..