right now..

i miss stg

one of the best years

of my life

promise

xo

a moment

i had a moment

where all the sudden a light

when from off to on

in this moment i was giddy as can be

soooo happy i was indeed

i felt free

free from everything that has

been holding me back

i was free to be myself again

free to let go of the past

so i did

...

i let go

& to be honest i've never felt better

it took me a minute to realize

but this has possibly been the best

thing to ever happen to me

cause like i said

i feel free

"the sky is the limit & i just want to float

free as a spirit on a journey of hope

cut the strings & let me go

im weightless, im weightless

millions of balloons tethered to the ground

weight of the world tries to hold us down

cut the strings & let me go

im weightless, im weightless

ready steady, ready, lets go"

ps.

thank you lp for sharing

this moment with me

i wouldnt have wanted to share

it with anyone else

...

this is my best friend kyky

i am obsessed with her

♥

beauty parlor

laurie lou & i had a hair day

we played beauty parlor as her mother dear called it

tweezed eye brows

colored hair

& gave each other needed haircuts

did you know in grade 8

(as those canadians call it)

we talked about how one day we would start a business

called-

...

"we do you"

we do realize now how that name

could have a different meaning

but we were only younglings

& thought it was sooo cleaver

anyways

this business was all about helping others look good

like we would give them little makeovers & such

looking back on it now

we ourselves needed makeovers

i mean you should have seen me in 8th grade

actually you should have seen me all through high school

bwhahah

nightmare

bless my little heart

weird that we both went to cosmetology school though

so now i guess we really can have our business

we do you

by

sophie & lauren

today was lovely

but we need lives

xoxo

spoons

last night we had another great "rukkkkus"

instead of going hot tubbing cause it was freezing

we ended the night playing spoons

i had forgotten how much i adored this card game

we had a blast & there was lots of laughter

its funny how something so simple

like a game of spoons can make you feel

like you have the best friends in the world

as i sat there i took a minute

to look around at my cute paul mitchell posse

& see the laughter & happiness in all of their faces

i couldn't help but smile to myself

i love them all so much & for different reasons

we all are at different places in our lives

but getting together for rukkkkus

is something i think will be a tradition for a

lonnnng time

...

p.s

back to spoons

i took a trip down memory lane

back to summers in island park at the cabin

playing countless rounds of spoons with

judd. carly. & cailey.

those were the days

xo

once apon a time

there was a girl named sophie

& her bff was lauren

one day lauren met zach

they fell in love

sophie obviously became zachs bff too

(& maybe secret lovers -

but thats besides the point really)

sophie hung out with them so much

its like she became their puppy

or their child

always following them around

wanting to hang out with them

being annoying & bugging them

but one day sophie was in a funk

stayed in bed all day

then there was a knock at her door

it was laurie & z

they came for a visit

they brought presents too

her favorite magazine

her favorite treats

& her favorite drink

all 3 bffs had a grand old time

chattin & laughing & such

all the things bffs do

they left sophies house

& sophie realized that she really did

have the best friends in the whole world

& that she loves l & z more than anything

& that she couldn't thank them enough for

not only making her night-

but her week

the end

(cutest couple ever right!?)

GRADUATION

what inspires you?

i love paul mitchell

i honestly think it is the most amazing school out there

choosing to go there was the best decision i have ever made

& i am going to miss everything about it

they not only teach you how to be successful in the industry

but how to be successful in all aspects life

they inspire you to be better as a person

i love the people more than anything

they have been my family for the past year and a half

i have learned so much from every single person there

& they have all made such a lasting impact on my life

its seriously a bittersweet feeling

i couldn't stop crying the whole night

you wait what seems like forever to be done with your hours

then when it comes you are kinda sad

im leaving behind what has been such and amazing chapter in my life

but i know great adventures are coming my way

i love being a hairdresser & being in the beauty industry

when you have a passion for something it makes life so much more enjoyable

shout out to my "posse"

53.39.99.95.20.26.50

i love you all so much

RUKKKKUS

robyn is married!!

the crew at the wedding dinner

minus rachel..

i was lucky enough to be robs maid of honor

i had to give a toast at the dinner

i read a journal entry i wrote about robyn over a year ago

i cried like a baby. dang it.

driving to the temple

waiting for rob to come out

the married couple

so happy for them

bff's

getting her freshened up before the reception

i did her hair

& lauren did her makeup

i dont mean to toot our own horns

but toot toot... i think we did a fabulous job

she looked amazingggg

bridesmaids

love her

the whole wedding was absoultley amazing

i couldnt be happier for robyn & spenc

xoxo

look at these gems..

a day in the life of sophie & lauren

eating chips & popcorn

kit-kats

&

playing nintendo 64

while dressed in cowboy attire

& looking like gems..

freaks

twins4eva

xoxo

powellooza

oneL

had too much fun in lake powell

it was unreal

went with my onel girls and over 200 people

loved every second of it

to my b to the ff's

we are more than merely acquaintances

it's as if we are cut from the same fabric

we have a common thread

that won't be broken

by people or years or distance

you bring love and light

kindness and caring

cheer and support into my life

thank you for listening without judging

and for giving advice without pushing

thank you for helping me gain confidence in

myself to stand alone-

and for letting me know you'll always be there

i know that our friendship will

grow stronger year after year

and i hope that all off the blessings

you bring to my life-

i can return to you

may you always be fulfilled

may you feel content with your

accomplishments and no matter what

know that you are

truly and deeply loved

-kim anderson

its amazing how big of impact your closest friends can have on your life. i feel so blessed to have friends who have been permanently written in my "life book." as each chapter closes and another one opens, i know that each page will be filled with them always. its nights like the night i had last night that makes me truly grateful to my heavenly father for giving me these people. its bittersweet having change. sometimes i wish i could freeze time and we could be 20 forever and live the silly and adventurous lives we do, yet im excited for what the future has in store for all of us. some of my fondest memories and the ones i will remember forever have been with these girls. there comes a time when your friends stop being friends and become part of your family. i will love them always.

lala- my twin. we are so much alike in every little way. we finish each others sentences and half the time don't even have to finish them because we already know what the other one is thinking. she is soo caring and always making sure everyone feels loved. she has a one of a kind sense of humor and im always laughing when im with her. i love my dates with her and z where they kindheartedly let me tag along.

catieb- she is a crackkk up. i seriously pee my pants when im with her. she says the most outrageous things. she knows me probably the best. i dont have to say anything and she knows something is wrong and always gets where im coming from. shes good at making you feel good about yourself. she is selfless and worries more about others than herself. and she is stunnniinngg.

meggie- gorgeous. lovable. life of the party. meg is always the one to get you out of the house to have a good time. she runs of pure energy alll the time and i absolutly love it. shes hardly ever sad or in a bad mood. she lives life to the fullest and i envy her for it. her hugs are my favorite, she welcomes you with open arms and holds you tight. i always feel loved around meg and she never judges when you make mistakes.

rob- my go-to girl. when im having a bad day i call her. she gives amazing advice and lets meknow that no matter what i can be a better person and i am special and loved. shes getting married and im soo excited for her. spencer is a lucky guy but im not going to lie im sad ill have to share my bean! i look forward to our almost daily phone calls which trust me wont stop even when shes married.

red hot- ohhh rachel. i cant even begin to tell you how much i love this girl. she is so wonderful and special and braden is the luckiest guy in the world to have won her heart. me and rach have always shared special moments together ( most of them sitting in my car). i love and appreciate how much she cares about whats going on in my life.

kyky- my little nieve ky hutch. i miss her soo much. we became so close in stg and i can honestly say i have never laughed harder then when i was in her presence. she is so kind and loving to everyone. shes a horrible speller and i love it. she makes me laugh just thinking about her. shes moving to salt lake and im so excited we get to hang out more.

chels- suggestion box. i spill to chels. stalking in her smart car is what we do best. we eat in silence and she is awkward. i adore her and know it was destiny we started school the same time. i dont know what i would have done this year in provo without her. she is a huge example to me and i look up to her a lot. she wants to serve a mission and our bftd temple dates kept me uplifted. shes amazing.

Keri- we share a common humor. she makes me laugh constantly. she has a positive energy about her that makes you want to continually spend time with her. if i were a boy i would want to marry her- thats why im going to marry her brother. :] she has the all the qualities you want in a friend. i know i can count on her for anything. and shes anti-social sometimes just like me- and shes okay with it. she owns who she is and doesn't care what others think of her.

i love these girls too much for my own good.

xoxo

[backstreets back alright]

bsb concert- bahhhh

toooooo much fun

can't even blog about how much fun

it was just too much

looooved every second of it

we had a blasssst

[today, im grateful for]

the most amazing dad who gives me infinite love and support 

a best friend who gives me inner strength 

... and tells me i can do the hard things in life- and tells me if she could she would do them for me. like writting a letter for me and i can just sign my name at the end if that makes it easier to send 

the place i feel most at home and myself- cabin count down 13 days

my education, i love being able to learn even when school gets hard and stressful and i leave crying multiple days in a row

chocolate creamies from bridget and erics house

driving with the sunroof open and all the windows down 

music that pumps you up and makes you want to dance all over the house 

playing legos with my little cousins- i forgot how much fun i had playing legos with judd when i was younger

making plans for a day hanging out with my sister

my grandpa rog- i dont think he has any idea of how much i look up to him

my grandma jill- for always having my back and making sure im okay

making wish lists of things i cant afford but keeping tabs on my computer anyways

missionaries- :) especially the ones who have to deal with my obnoxious honking and waving every time i drive by the mtc

texting my mom and telling her all the funny things nanny is doing and knowing she is laughing on the other end

watching my favorite shows on animal planet like river monsters, or life, or whale wars 

keeping secrets and daily records in my journal

my heavenly father for the blessings he gives me daily 

and last but not least- realizing what this girl realizes too..

Realizing that nothing just happens. Realizing that I am surrounded by love, by people who care, who’s actions speak louder than words…and choosing NOT to allow one let down take me back to the dark place, the place where I expect this, deserve this, should have known this would happen blah blah blah. Wondering if I’ve closed the door on that dark place for good.  For now, I just choose to smile because my life, with all of it’s ups and downs, is just so GOOD…and so damn fun. 

On that note…