happiest of new years.

I love the fact that we get to celebrate a new year. Out with old and in with the new. NEW. Its such a refreshing word. Its a time when we are reminded that things can change, and we can feel like we have a fresh start. Every day is a chance to be better version of ourselves, and learn and grow. Every year that we get older is an opportunity to let go of the things that hold us back or make us feel bad about ourselves, feel more comfortable in our own skin, and be able to laugh at ourselves in a way we couldn’t before. It’s so easy to focus on what we don’t have, the mistakes we made, and hold on to the past and the people who let us down. Its not that we have to forget about our past experiences, and we should never regret them, because its those experiences in life that remind us that we are alive to the fullest degree, and we have a lovely life to live. But with the new year, the trick to happiness is appreciating what we do have, accepting change and being able to let go of the past. Setting goals for ourselves, meeting new people, taking chances, loving ourselves for who we are, having new experiences and realizing that life, amidst all its up and downs, isn't so hard after all- in fact its pretty amazing. We realize that there are better things out there for us, we can be excited for all the new adventures that await us, and we can have that fresh start that we all so desperately need. That I so desperately need.

Since junior high and all through our first year of college, my friends and I would make predictions for the new year. What boys we would kiss, places we would go, who would get married first, etc. We would write them down and keep it safe and read them the next year to see how many we got right. It was such a fun tradition and its even more fun to have passed that tradition on to my sister and her friends. This year I am making my own prediction list for myself. This year is going to be all about Sophie. I have a billion things I want to do, places I want to see, and goals I want to achieve. I have big plans for 2012 and I am predicting it is going to be the best yet. And its my golden birthday this year on January 22, so its bound to be a good year right? A golden year. Its true about what they say ya know.. the older you get the wiser you become. I believe it. 

If you're having a hard time coming up with 
new years resolutions you might want to consider this.
 I added it to my list. Living the Abundant Life
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Happy New Year

i know everything about everything
(or i just like to think so)

but i know that anyone who
starts crying when they laugh
is someone worth knowing

& i know what you did last summer...
hahahaha im laughing at myself right now
cause i also know i am funny

new url..

i figured since i am not in college anymore
it was time to change my url from sophie-collegelife
to a more fitting one.. like just my name.

so here it is
same blog
new name

k byee

great quote
yah yah yah

but lets just talk about the handwriting for a second. ohhh my gosh i think i am in love. dont mind me if i sit for the next hour or so with a scrap piece of paper and pen and try to copy it.
me oh my! its just lovely.

sometimes i forget
that i have a blog

nothing like a good kelly clarkson song
that makes you crank the volume up
and fist pump jshore style
Thanks to you I got a new thing started
Thanks to you I'm not a broken hearted
Thanks to you I'm finally thinking bout me
You know in the end the day you left
was just my beginning
In the end...
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger,
Just me, myself and I
life is good
honestly- it really is
happy happy happy

sometimes you just have
to stop & ask yourself
is it going to matter tomorrow

The journey between
what you once were and
who you are now becoming
is where the dance of
life really takes place.

Barbara DeAngelis

just so ya'll know
today is the 3 year mark
of the day i was in the hospital
with a little thing called
"acute renal failure"
& few other randoms..

a whole 3 years ago
i cant even believe it
sometimes i feel like it was
just yesterday

i have come a long way
in the past 3 years

i think sometimes good health is a
thing that can be taken for granted
until you experience something scary
& trust me
i never take it for granted anymore
& im so thankful that i am
happy & healthy

falling for fall

along with the lovely
change in weather
has come a change in sophie as well
ive turned into...
(do i dare say it?)

i said it
i feel so much better now

hooray for cute fall fashions

right now..
i miss stg
one of the best years
of my life


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love finding treasure on my computer

what a gem

go for long walks
indulge in hot baths
question your assumptions
be kind to yourself
live for the moment
loosen up
curse the world
count your blessings
just let go
just be

-carol shields

a moment

i had a moment
where all the sudden a light
when from off to on

in this moment i was giddy as can be
soooo happy i was indeed

i felt free

free from everything that has
been holding me back

i was free to be myself again

free to let go of the past
so i did
i let go

& to be honest i've never felt better
it took me a minute to realize
but this has possibly been the best
thing to ever happen to me

cause like i said
i feel free

"the sky is the limit & i just want to float
free as a spirit on a journey of hope
cut the strings & let me go
im weightless, im weightless

millions of balloons tethered to the ground
weight of the world tries to hold us down
cut the strings & let me go
im weightless, im weightless

ready steady, ready, lets go"

thank you lp for sharing
this moment with me
i wouldnt have wanted to share
it with anyone else

look to this day for it is life.
in its brief course lie all
the realities and truths of existence,
the joy of growth, the glory of action,
the splendor of beauty...
today well lived makes every
yesterday a memory of happiness
and every tomorrow a vision of hope.
look well, therefore, to this day...

-ancient sanskrit proverb

sometimes i wish you
could choose who you
dream about

get outttaaa my head

happy sunday

in good company

i like people who can
turn my day around


went to the rsl game tonight
with the onerepublic concert after


sat in a box suite
very luxurious

i decided i want to buy
season tickets for next year
wouldnt that be fun!?
i think so too

im glad i was there instead
of the other game...
(still love the cougs-
but that was a wee bit embarrassing)

that was a

" the most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. these persons have a appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. beautiful people do not just happen. "

-elizabeth kubler ros

just a memory

the day they discontinued postum
was the worst day of my life

just sayin..

ohhh how im craving a yummy
mug full right about now


bitter or better

bitter or better

bitter or better


choose better soph

"i believe that everything happens for a reason. people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

-marilyn monroe

she is so wise

"happiness can be found, even in the
darkest of times, if one only remembers
to turn on the light"

-albus dumbledore


i've been watching shows about 9.11
for the past couple days
which has been completely humbling
& one in particular stuck out to me

a sweet lady
a survivor of the attacks

as she told her story she had tears in
her eyes as she talked about the young man
that risked his life for her own
he saved her
& he died

she talked about how she felt like
because he made such an amazing
sacrifice for her she owed it to him to
live a happy & good life

i couldn't help but think of my savior at that time
he made the ultimate sacrifice for us
he died so that we too could live
a happy and good life
he loved us so much that he was willing
to take on the sins of the world
suffering pains & afflictions of all kinds
& died for each & every one of us
not just one person
but all of us

i feel so blessed to have the gospel in my
life & the understanding of the atonement

but i also feel so blessed to live in america
especially on this 10 year anniversary of 9.11
just a reminder of how lucky we are
to live in a free country
& im so thankful for all the men & women
who risk their lives everyday to keep it that way

good things to come

Don’t you quit. You keep walking. You keep trying. There is help and happiness ahead. Some blessings come soon, some come late, and some don’t come until heaven. But for those who embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ,they come. It will be all right in the end. Trust God and believe in good things to come."

-jeffrey r. holland

happy sunday

the battle with my cozy bed

i have a little problem
i wouldnt call it laziness
but more like a love affair
...with my bed

sometimes i feel so great laying in it
that i never want to leave it

i just want to stay cuddled up
with my blanket
a fluffy pillow
& a good book for days
add in my computer so i can
constantly be on pinterest
& im set for life

is that so wrong?

just wanted to tell the whole world (or whoever reads my blog) how lucky i am to have 4 wonderful older sisters. oh wait... i mean aunts. but basically they are my sisters. my best friends. i love them ohh so much & feel ohh so blessed to have them in my life. i love being able to tell them anything & everything. i know they love me & and have my back- always. i really appreciate them.. more than they probably know.

sweet dreams

im sorry mat k. im cheating on you. havent stopped listening to this allllll day.

This one's for the lonely

The ones that seek and find
Only to be let down
Time after time

This one's for the torn down
The experts at the fall
Come on friends get up now
You're not alone at all

And this part was for her
This part was for her
This part was for her
Does she remember?

It comes and goes in waves, i....

This one's for the faithless
The ones that are surprised
They are only where they are now
Regardless of their fight

This one's for believing
If only for it's sake
Come on friends get up now
Love is to be made

And this part was for her
This part was for her
This part was for her
Does she remember?

It comes and goes in waves,
I am only led to wonder why
It comes and goes in waves
I am only led to wonder why
Why I try

This is for the ones who stand
For the ones who try again
For the ones who need a hand
For the ones who think they can

It comes and goes in waves,
I am only led to wonder why
It comes and goes in waves
I am only led to wonder why
Why I try


i set up my best friend

& my cousin

and now they are

due to be married in december
& i could not be more excited for them
i knew it was a PERFECT fit

Congratulations you two love birds
& welcome to the family brade

letting go doesn't mean giving up
but rather accepting that there are
things that cannot be

just a little ramble

you know those days where you
think you have the worst life ever
and the world is out to get you?
whelp- today that was me
i was totally throwing myself a pity party
and feeling sorry for myself
i cried myself to sleep and i think i woke
up crying as if i didn't stop in my sleep
i just had a bad bad day and i was
milking it for all its worth

then out of no where i thought of a friend
who's life is way harder than mine
and when i say way- i mean way
she is doing things that i wouldn't be able to
do even if someone paid me a million dollars
she is a gem and probably the strongest person i know

and then i felt stupid
for being soo dramatic

sure- i'm going through a hard time
and i know its okay to be sad about my situation
because i am sad
i had to take a step back for a second and realize
that my life really is good
and i really am happy and so blessed
and sure sometimes things don't always go as
planned- but i know in the end it will all be okay
i will be okay

"everything will be okay in the end
if its not okay
its not the end"

so instead of focusing so much
on myself and my hardships
i decided i would focus more on her
and others in general

i wrote this friend of mine a little message
telling her i loved her and that
i was thinking about her

and you know what?
i feel better

i think people (myself included) can get so caught up
in our own issues that we forget about others
and become so self absorbed

and i dont know about you guys
but when i think about something and only
that one thing- it makes me more upset
because duh!- thats all you're thinking about

so what a better way to get over it
by having a little charity and thinking
of others right!?

just a thought

i heard a saying once that said-
if we all threw our problems in a pile
and saw everyone else's
we'd grab ours back

alright i'm done rambling
much love

i hope they call me on a mission..

& he's a goner..
left wednesday to go serve the
people of McAllen, Texas

a proud sister i am

see ya in 2!

..feeling defeated..

Modest is Hottest, Ladies.
"I find the whole concept of being ‘sexy’ embarrassing and confusing. If I do an interview with photographs people desperately want to change me - dye my hair blonder, pluck my eyebrows, give me a fringe. Then there’s the choice of clothes. I know everyone wants a picture of me in a mini-skirt. But that’s not me. I feel uncomfortable. I’d never go out in a mini-skirt. It’s nothing to do with protecting the Hermione image. I wouldn’t do that. Personally, I don’t actually think it’s even that sexy. What’s sexy about saying, ‘I’m here with my boobs out and a short skirt, have a look at everything I’ve got?’ My idea of sexy is that less is more. The less you reveal the more people can wonder.

- Emma Watson

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor, catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."
- Mark Twain

Christina Perri - Arms


lately i've been out of balance. i've been trying to figure out where i should be at this point in my life- but in the midst of figuring things out, i think i'm forgetting the important things. i worry too much about the future and what it has in store for me. i've kind of hit a wall. & by doing so, i also put up walls and become super guarded. i put myself in tangled situations. i tend to sweep the important things, or the things that scare me under the rug. i run.. far away. i become afraid of making decisions for the fear of making the wrong one. lately ill be honest i've been taking the easy way out on just about.. uh everything. i like to "go with the flow" but sometimes i get too caught in the "flow" and lose sight of where that flow is taking me. i'm terrified of failure or letting people down. but isn't that what life is all about? failing so we can succeed? taking chances & learning from our mistakes? living life to the fullest & having no regrets? i cant live in fear & i cant put things off forever- even though sometimes i would like to. i have to keep moving on with my life & making the best of it, even if its hard at times. i cant play it safe anymore. i have to have the courage to face all the things i've been running from. & as much as i hate to say it- i have to let the walls come down. i need to trust my instincts & be willing to let things go. i need to find balance.

"for every dark night,
there's a brighter day"